A few posts ago, I mentioned that I graduated in December, but since then I've been living at home with my parents. Which has been fun, of course, but during these past few months I have been dealing with horrible migraines. I have been debating whether or not I was going to write a blog about it. Talking about my migraines and the pain makes it seem a little unreal. These past two months I normally have a migraine 3-4 days out of a 7 day week.
Some days the pain isn't so bad; I can do mindless things barely noticing that my head is actually aching. Then I try to problem solve or make sentences and do something besides watch TV, and my head feels completely full and throbbing. This is a problem when I run into problems. It makes any problem seem overwhelming and almost unsolvable and completely stressful.
And then there are days like today, where the pain is sharp (especially) behind my eyes and sometimes (most of the time) just all over. Again making it hard to think.
But even when my head doesn't hurt, I am sensitive to everything. Any bright lights, strong smells, pressure on my neck and it quickly triggers a headache. It extremely limits my life. I have to be so careful on the days that I don't have a headache to watch out for the potential circumstances that will lead to another headache.
I didn't write this post to complain, so please don't read this as that. I'm just exhausted. Right now, I feel as though I don't really have much of a life. A full day for me is probably a normal person's version of a half day of busyness. I mostly just lay in bed with a headache: napping, sometimes watching TV on my computer, and trying to find things to do once I get better.
I am on all the prevention medicines that I can be, so the next step is Botox. My insurance approved it recently. I'm not quite sure how the Botox is supposed to work or how they will inject it into me. But I'm also getting an MRI of my head and neck just to make sure that we're not missing anything. I guess I will keep this blog updated on my progress.
It just felt like I was keeping a big part of my life off of the blog. Anyone who has ever had a migraine knows how crippling they can be. But I know some of the people in my life get frustrated with how much of my time is taken up by my migraines. I mean I get frustrated with how much of my time is compromised of migraines. I would never use migraines as an excuse just not to go somewhere. Anytime I say I have a migraine, I really do. Anytime I ever used to use migraines as an excuse and I ended up with one. I would rather do almost anything other than have a migraine. ANYTHING. Migraines are no fun (and nowadays if I get one it usually lasts from the moment I wake up to the moment I go to bed for at least 2 days).
Labels: Migraines