I've
been struggling lately. Struggling to create blog post in any way, shape, or
form of a regular or semi-regular basis. Struggling to even write this blog
post. Struggling to put up with my daily migraines. Struggling to finish the
small loose-end tasks to finally be ready to open for business. Struggling to
depend solely on God's strength and not my own.
I
like to think of myself as a semi-private person. You won't ever see me on a
reality TV show, and yet here I am broadcasting my life to the world—that’s
where the “semi” part comes in. I'm normally pretty reserved and I could
definitely use a few more years honing the art of small talk—and in my wildest
dream, wittiness. Most of all, I'm just a proud human being who doesn't like
for other people to see her struggling, failing, and being anything but
perfect. However, I think I want to break the silence, admit my defeat,
and start moving forward.
I
originally restarted this blog a little over a year ago with the idea that
maybe other people who have migraines can take my journey and learn from it. I
never openly shared this idea because I didn’t think I really had much of a
journey to follow. I get migraines, end
of story. I am so super over posts about
how my day has been. I can already tell
you how things probably went: I had a
migraine; it hurt; I tried to be productive but all I really wanted to do was
sleep/lay down.
So
now what? How do I change the conversation? How do you say "Body, you're
going to be nice to me today!"?
Maybe
you do it one step at a time. One song at a time. One verse at a time.
Maybe
even the jaded can try their hand at optimism.
Today: I'm dreaming up some mini-projects to change the conversation.
Title: "Magic Touch" by Golden Silvers
Labels: Life, Migraines, Music